When I was at bible school in New Zealand I struggled with feeling like God wasn’t enough. I knew in my head that He created me, loved me and had a good plan for my life, but I still felt that He couldn’t truly fulfill all of my desires.
At the time I was stuck in an unhealthy relationship and struggling because I knew it wasn’t what God wanted for me. But the thing that kept me from letting go and moving on was a fear that God wouldn’t be big enough to fill the hole left behind. I had allowed myself to fall hard for this guy and I wondered if God was really enough.
One afternoon I was laying out on the lawn, looking up into a perfect blue-sky day and I came across Psalm 73. It talks about how easy it is to question whether God’s way really is the best way. It describes feeling jealous of those who aren’t walking with the Lord because sometimes their lives look so much more glamorous and fulfilling than our own (ever felt this way as you look at the lives of the rich and famous?)
As the writer is trying to figure all of this out, he suddenly has a revelation and it comes when he “entered the sanctuary of God” – when he spent intimate time with the Father. And this is what is revealed, my favorite verses (25-26):
“Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.”
The truth is the earth has NOTHING to offer us. Nothing that can truly fill our desires.
But we’ve all gone to the world instead of God at one time or another. Maybe you’ve gone to the world with your desire for love. Your desire for affection. Your desire for acceptance. Maybe because of this you’ve made some pretty colossal mistakes. You’re not alone!
Though your flesh and heart fail – God can be the strength of your heart!
He doesn’t want to shame you when you fall. He wants to fill you up.
He wants to be “your portion forever”.
So when I’m drawn to the trappings of this world – popularity, wealth, fame, fortune, power, etc. I remember this passage and thank the Lord that He truly is MORE than enough for ALL of my desires.
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