“Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.” Hebrews 11:1
“So do you know what you’ll be doing in the fall?” she asked, brushing the hair away from her eyes as we walked.
“Nope. Not too sure. I have some ideas, but nothing is set in stone. I’m excited to see what God will do.” Though spoken with all the confidence I could muster, the words sounded empty. I wished I could say “I’ll be touring with this ministry, and volunteering with this other one, and writing for this magazine and, and, and. But I couldn’t.
“Oh well I’m sure something will work out.” She smiled brightly, nothing but hope in her words.
“I’m sure it will!”
As September approaches, I’m starting a new stage of my life – one that will require being certain and sure of God’s goodness, his plans and provision. Every since I can remember I’ve had a plan. I used to plan my birthday party months in advance to make sure no one forgot. I would plan my summers all throughout the school year. I had a plan to travel and go to bible school after graduating from high school. A plan to get my Education Degree when I returned home. And after three years of teaching, I’ve resigned my position and my plan.
In this time of uncertainty, it feels a bit like I’ve jumped off the side of a cliff…exciting and scary. I look through my day planner and the empty pages scream, “Am I good enough? Did I do the right thing? Is God really good?”
That’s it. Is God good? Can he be trusted? Is he who he says he is?
Because if He is then all I need is a little faith. I just need to believe that a mustard seed grows into a mustard plant and not a weed.
“Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” Matthew 17:200