I’m feeling discouraged this evening.
I just received an email, in response to an offer I made to be a workshop speaker at an upcoming youth conference in Manitoba. It said:
“Heather, Thanks for the kind offer. We are already booked up for both events and not looking for any more presenters. “
A closed door.
Then I received another email from a writing contest I entered a few months back, which I didn’t win. It said,
“Congratulations for being the person that just missed the Olympic medal.”
Another closed door.
Neither of these people meant to discourage me, but it just feels like doors of opportunity are closing all around me.
When I began taking this whole blogging thing more seriously 3 months ago, I did so because I genuinely felt led by God to do so. I’ve poured hours into writing posts, editing photos, guest posting, sponsor swapping, commenting on other blogs, etc. etc. and it feels like I’m stuck. Like I don’t know what the next step is or if I’m having any impact at all. My growth is at a standstill and I don’t know what the next step is.
More closed doors.
I wrote this as my facebook status today: “Trying not to be discouraged by closed doors…” and a friend wrote back “See any open windows? 🙂 Chin up.”
At first I felt annoyed – “No I don’t see any open windows. I’d like to just sit here in this dark hallway and have myself a good ole pity party, thankyouverymuch.”
But as I thought about it more I realized that yes, I do indeed see an open window.
I see it here.
Two big open windows!
There is nothing but potential, hope, opportunity, joy and love staring right at me every time I look down at these beautiful windows to this little soul. Wow.
How can I be discouraged?
“Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God. (Psalm 43:5)